My Christian Life.

Okay so tonight I went to a new church and suddenly, i had a glimpse of God showing me stuff personally to me, and i've drawn a diagram to help me here. 

Okay, so this looks weird I know. Lots of random dots. I'll try to explain this.


The blue dots are my sin, things I do that aren't Christian, like swearing, drinking, being selfish, being judgemental, not showing love. 


The red dots are the good things I do within Christanity like reading the bible, praying, evangalizing etc


These aren't proportional, just random.


Okay so ni the middle, is Jesus.




Lately, i've felt very disconnected from God. And no matter when I prayed or read the bible, it didn't come to me, I still felt far away.


I had completely missed the point, I had lost a relationship with Jesus.


Reading the bible is an AID to the relationship. Encouraging and loving is what we should act like. Praying (the way I was doing it) wasn't right. 


I had totally missed Jesus.


So, I'm going back to basics.


I'm not sure how, I need as much prayer as possible.